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Friday, January 18, 2008

A request !!!!!

A sincere n a humble request to anyone n everyone who spares their precious time to go through my 'oh, what a blog' (m yet to get any negative comments for my blog )....Plz Plz plz people do put in ur comments for my blogs....m very sure dat m lacking at many bays n more dan anything else i would like to improve via my passion of writing....so all readors,especially critics r fully welcome.....plz do keep posting ur comments....
Love,
Gaurav

Thursday, January 17, 2008

indeed....it was a visual treat....!!!!!

Holidays have been ever extremely boring for one who stays back in d hostel...When the entire genre of students are back to their homes ,staying back at hostel makes no sense but taking into consideration the distance n d traumatic journey one has to travel staying at hostel for a week long pongal holiday was quite logical.....
well...to start wid d daunting task of spending my hols ,i cramped my leg d very 1st day...god.....it was damn painful...like ur left leg hangin out wen ur right one is in motion....nuring my injury i had to stay away from cricket(at which m neither good at,but particiapation is wat all matters ppl...!!) fa a couple of weeks...was exploring how'll i keep a count of d endless days yet to come...
But i coped up sportingly...getting glued to d comp....made an optimum use of the coll's FREE wi-fi connectivty.....saw a hell lot of series...it was a gr8 week but it was only yesterday i.e d last day of holiday wen v hit d bull's eye...
One of my closest fren's parents had come to d college to fulfill their long withstanding dream of seein how d coll was....( i wonder y my parents don get these feelings....oh..its in genes...)...m happy my parents don't make it all d way to coll given d split up lives i lead....one gaurav at home n d opposite one at d coll...well,i n my other 2 frens were given an intro to Vivek's parents by him....v started wid making a round to the coll showcasing every positve aspect of d coll....Ya m right..SASTRA should hav asked to me market d coll...m best at it....:)..finally v decided to show dem our flat where v stick at most of d times....given d messed up condition of my renowned'oh,wat a mess' room, two guys rushed in to make sure noone there was indulged in some erotic stuff n throw d left over buds of the cig...but somehow they seemed to b impressed wid d rooms....i guess,dey were not faking it up....:)
Finally d plan was to visit d big temple at tanjore or thanjavur(watever)......its d breehadeshwara temple...one of temples listed in world's heritage site...d plan of goin to tanjore n moreover to d temple made me sick....somehow m allergic to d crowd at temples....given my passion for movin things , d still statues n d long queues drive me nuts....but i had no intention of making it known to Vivek's parents...dey had a 'bahut sidha ladka hai' impression about me.....
v were a group of six....ya i forgot to mention dat it was aunty who made us go...she was d only female member n i realised later how lazy v guys were....hats off to auntyji....!!! i n ranjan got in a bus which zoomed off n oders could'nt get it....so d trip started on a bad note....m not in dis stuff but still i felt....however v got down at d oder stop n waited for dem n went together to d temple.....
i was visiting d temple after a gap of 7 months n it was my 3rd one in 4 yrs...i said it was in my genes.....:)..wow....'look at dat'....was my call...b temple was flooded wid ppl....mostly girls...a few good lookin....i n uttam parted ways wid d rest of d group to do wat v like d most....sight seeing...v guys always fight but wen it comes to dis v r best buddies....given d crowd at the temple v din keep a track of d no' of hotties v really came across....dere were some gorgeous imported stuff(foreighners i meant)....v got a few of dem in our cameras n memories too....But d one i got dumbstruck eventfully happened to b from our coll...man...i felt a instant surge of blood rushin through my veins....though she was wid a guy(hopefully he was her bro...!!! i know its height of optimism...!!) but dat yellow suit n black dupatta got me crazy....unable to do a thing v sat down trackin her n helplessly lookin at her....it was obvious as it was my 1st crush in dis sem....don be shocked if i say i generally hav a crush on atlest 10-12 girls per sem...(it's not in my genes but my age...)v tried capturing her in camera but her well built bodyguard prevented me from doin so.....n man dere was dis huge crowd n i really had no plans of getting a PP(public pitai...!!!!)..v spend almost an hour foldin hands n beggin from god...!!!god..give me this...give me dat....i do too often....:)..an hour n a half later v were out of d revered temple....by dis time i forgot about d yellow chick i saw....ha ha ha....but indeed it was a great visual treat....much more i could hav asked for....
However wen i came back to my hostel i got haunted by d thoughts of d yellow suit chick again....more dan anythin else i desperetely needed to find her name....not bcoz i gonna talk to her but just to contain d man within me who's curious....!! guess 'll hav to follow d Sherlock Holmes pursuit n find her name....Watever m all set fa it....Hope it works out....:)

Sunday, January 13, 2008

my trail to the TCS.....!!!!

k....m writin dis blog almost a yr after i got selected in tcs(i should also mention i was among d other 314 odd ppl who all got selected...)..dis bracked thing was to avoid any eye brows raised appreciating my talent pool or applauding my intellect..only those who appear for dis recruitment drive(hell...y do dey cal it a recruitment process....315 in SASTRA n & 789 in VIT...) know its more or less a drive intended to tap d potentials of students in a well crafted ploy to outsource it....imagine working for 12 hrs a day brooding on to ur comp screens,feeding data in files n taking a salery of 20k a month.....sounds like a fairy tale....!!!..
well...have another 6 months to join d revered..(is it really...???)..so dere's no point in discussing d job profile n d opportunies i may land up with....u hear a lot from others but finally its u who feels on ur own n decides....:)...so here i m...d memories r still very clear...'ll be lying if i say i still remeber d dates....:)...i just checked it out...ya monday,19th of march,2007..d D day...it was announced around a month back about d 1st company which 'll take it go at d pre-final yr studs...TCS also conducted some orientation programmes awaring students of its pre-requisites n other quitessential things...K...before i get in my story lets listen to some prologue...barely a week before d tcs stuff my GATE'07 results got out...m sure dose eye brows raised for my appreciation of my talents will go down...i fared miserably( i guess m exaggaerating dis b'cuz i rarely studied for it...)..i din get a score...added to it a fren remarked me" der's nothing to be proud about it"...added to it v had our 2nd mid sems days before d D day...i bunked it fully just to meet my preparations...
So, d day came in...monday,19th of march...having mugged up d important gre words n practised d analytical reasoning a no. times i was quite confident of making it in my apti...but my main fear was interviews as usual....i really fail to express it out wid expressions( i still wondered how i did dat day....or i really did...)...d night of 18th was a bit too long wid d only thing revolving in my mind was d gre words....i barely slept for an hr ni could see it out d next morning in mirror.....i seemed a complete messed up...i shaved again( imagine shaving daily for 3 days....u could end up shaving ur skin only...:) )...got in my newly bought uniform for d spl day( really its a uniform , a code u gotto strictly adhere wid...).. i light blue ful sleeved t-shirt,black trousers...no tie plz now....n i was ready for d ppt(pre placement talks)..ya it was not d interview i was going for now.....i joined in my friends( aspiring employees of TCS )....v carried a note pad in just to make sure dat any spl info dey share does'nt go unnoticed....moreover wen u r drooling for a job u can't go to ur employee empty handed....i or v entered d audi an hour earlier just to make sure v get d seats n things start on a decent note ( i forgot to mention d eligible list of students were a whopping 1300+...)..n d seating capacity of d audi is just a mere 500...though other 2 audi's too were supposed to get d feed but d live performance attracts d most....:)..d gonna be ppt was supposed to start at 9 am sharp...but its INDIA guys n ppl find it essential to prove their importance n supiriority by gettin it late....d thing started at around 10 o'clock....Frens dis was d just d start....v were shown a couple of videos showing some musicians playin it out at everythin...'is dis wat u really do at TCS..???'..one of my frens asked me this inviting a welcome giggle on all faces...after dat traumatic ppt v made out ways to d notice boards to see out time slots for d apti...i was given a slot of 6:30 pm..90 mins exam means 'll be out wid d result n a hr form by 8 pm..( i was always optimistic about my results... ;) )...i spent d gap between d ppt n apti test by taking a survey of how many ppl did really make it in aptis....our initail survey was dissapointin knowin dat many prodigies also din make it in....however d guy who really got me in was my fren from cse living in my neighbour....he got in earlier n infused a positive spirit in me...
Howver d tense moments never leaves u...i got in d lab 4 along wid Gaurav Anand(a close fren of mine )....v sat in adjacent chairs just to make sure dat d 'help me my fren, m clueless' could b possible......v were given in a url ,a login id n password...i logged in a couple of mins after Gaurav did...god...!!! all dese words r new,he prompted...shocked at dis remark i gaped at my onscreen paper...k..its a synonym n d 1st word looked quite similar...d verbal reasoning was quite ok...but d quants were too too simple....u check out d old questions of tcs n u'll know d standards....now d most haunted analyticals were in front of me...but wats dis...its d same wat my neighbour told me few hrs back....i guess i was lucky... :)...10 anxious mins later d words Congrats...!!! flashed on both d adjacent screens.....time to re-joice....shakin hands wid ppl i moved out wid Gaurav n took a cig...really i needed it....d entire body was chilled off...more wid d anxiety created in d lab.....finally we made our ways in our hostel.....ya with d TCS hr form which we got..... :))

HAving cleared d aptis was not doing any good....another night was a passe widout sleep just thinking wat'll i speak out...but i had a strategy(it was a common strategy for all my frens...just say some crap but be confident like hell.....!!!)...my hr inteview was supposed to be at 11 am in morning....but as said earlier ppl again tried proving deir importance....my interview was delayed by goddamned 7 hrs....i dressed up most carefully as i could....looked ok...well anyone fitted wid a Rs 1200 worth parx shirt n an ultra expensive lee cooper shoes(they were never mine...) will look like a gentleman...another 30 mins were spent in a kind of waiting room from where v had to move out to butcher houses...oops m sorry...i meant interview rooms....i sat along with Gaurav(again) n Vikas outside d technical panelists....10 mins later i was called in....n d most awkward situation came in...dere wasn't a room...its was various cabins.....should i ask if could come in d room...??? it wasn't a room...shoold i shake my hands wid d panelists...dey looked way older dan me n included a female member too....i din do anything anyways.....i was bombarded wid a volley of questions....i appeared quite confident den..however it soon shattered off wen i failed to mumble out d newton's 1 law....i really forgot it dat time but recollected as soon as i came out...i did it again wen i failed to wap for a factorial....i really seemed to be out of my mind....comin out of d hr room or cabin ,i was brooding over my mistakes n promising not to repeat it again in the next hr interview( i had no idea dat dey did eliminate students in technicals....)i sat on d moulded chair lookin all smiling faces...my face said it all, how screwed up i was....

A few mins later as i expected i was asked to report upstairs for hr interview..i really wanted to do it fast...i was done wid all dese software stuff....all info i stored in my mind about Tcs startin hauntin me wid thoughts of i not clearin d tcs test....soon after my name was called in....8 hrs since i adorned d shoes my toes were irritating....i was all worn out....but thank god my panelists were too good...made me get at ease n few secs later i was bubbling again with my innate confidence.....i really did it well...answere them positively n i did well...!!!
dat night was even more painful wonderin if 'll be in or out....i think i did well in hr...but wat about technicals...i screwed up....frens kept motivating me about d results n kept pestering me for d next days celebrations...but deep down somewhere i kept feeling d chill.....!! next day i had my ususal classes...i did it...gave attendance fa a few...rumors started pouring in about d results as it could be out any moment....as once again d TCS ppl proved their point....we gathered in d hall right at 2 for d results...once again i sat wid Gaurav( dat deep down fear made me sit,just wanted to be 3rd time lucky...)...d proceedings started at around 4...however d final figures were way lower dan expected n we just nodded showin our disbelief n fearing a rejection finally....d long list of 315 students started getting it....ppl clapped,hugged each others n some jumped all around....finally d start of biotech names list gave me goose bumps...trust me it was d must horrifyin moment for me....somethin i could never forget off.....Gaurav Anand's name was followed by mine...since we shared same 1st name m still skeptical of date if i really made it in TCS...(just kidding guys....!!!!)...however it was traumatic 3 days for me which ended wid celebrations...it was partial though as we waited my other frens too to get placed....
a yr after wen i recollect dat moment i still feel d heat i got through with n appreciate my intellect too...!!!!well finally in a yr wen i failed at everythin literally i chipped in wid somethin...an achievement n a kick off to my career....!!!!!!!!

Saturday, January 12, 2008

m i back to normality....???????

Having posted 4 blogs in a span of 4 days really got me going....My inner self intriguing me if it me...??? a guy who finds penning down his views a daunting task much similar to Sir Ed's climbing the everest....!!!..
But m back....i guess back to d den where i created a safe niche for myself...
M a final yr b.tech student n contemporary to the popular belief m doing my project(which every engg stud is supposed to do,though rarely ppl do wid their sincerity....). More or less it's a mere formality which ends up with a decent grade...Mostly students don't give a damn to these grades...So, going on the pathways n trends set up by ppl , i decided to d same...Indulge into some cheap n impotent project inviting just a 'copy & paste' kind of hardwork....D plan was quite simple n clear...let d proj go one way,which does'nt require any work n study software stuff on d other side...(in may sound ironical but m a stud of biotech....shocked...!!!).Biotechnology which was deemed as one of the most prosperous sector after IT has somehow failed to prove its mettle...Poor infrastructure...lack of govt funds n sometimes poor human resources has done most of the casualties....Though d subjects have been dumb but d classes hav always been interesting...d male to female ratio of 1:2.3 has always created varied interests n opportunities among me(m not only d one...i mean all d guys of biotech)...But yeah its a misfortune or in my words a bold fate line in my palm dat i never got in any relation with anyone...something which sounds n seems crap to my genre of ppl but a divine asset to dose involved in it....
hmmm...where did i go....now coming to the point..despite of a strong determination of studyin softwares rather dan doin my proj a rendezvous wid a scholar guy compelled me to change my mind....just hearin of some gr8 prospects of success in a proj got me going in my dreams..Added to it...d company of another intelligent guy led me to change my mind....there was i.d other side of me....all set to back up a challenging proj which according to my guide had only 1 % success rate.....
We started wid our venture on tuesday,9th jan 2007...though d work plan was not quite clear with i having no idea wat to do next....However d sheer determination of Verma(my proj partner) helped me keep my nerves...our guide was extremely helpful and agreed to watever we asked for....imagine working wid a 8 lakh fermentor n other costly stuff.....mere carryin dem gave me goose bumps....!!!!! anyways 5 days since d onset of the project , we seem to be landing nowhere...though my guide has been very encouraging tellin us to manipulate n show anythin....Anyways it does'nt matter a lot wat u do....wat matters d most is ur sincerity and attitude.....n time n again i hav proved m deficient of it....guess dis is wat i mean wen i say or rather ask.....m i back to normality...?????

Friday, January 4, 2008

the inner call.....!!!!!!

Many times (and i am sure it happens with others too) i have been haunted and intrigued by my inner conscious or soul(what ever the name you give it to it) questioning my very existence and the impact i have made in this world....when the whole world around you blames you for being your self and for being good to others you are left with no choice but question yourself....ask yourself to change your old habit of being good and be a bit selfish rather than trying to be good and creating troubles for your own self...this other side of your psyche creates ruffles in your mind and this is what most of us refer as the inner call....
I have been thinking what to exactly write down when a lot of things keep doing rounds in my mind...suddenly this inner call thing got me in...its a human tendency...listen to its inner call most of the times...be it doing a benovalent deed or be it indulging in dreadliest of deeds....Man has always done things to contain himself,his desires n his inner call....My rendezvous wid d inner call has been a regular occasion....time n again my inner self keeps intimating me n warning me in certain perspectives about d mistakes i might be commiting....Its a fact dat all d calls made by ur inner self is not always a right one n is generally biased to any burning desires n wishes in one self.....
However dis inner self of us is a divine one n on most of the occasions leads one to a right path....
i have seen different facets of life....d time wen i roughed myself in d course of preparation for iit jee to my foray wid gate, i have seen it all....n on every occasion my inner self has felt a premonition about the possible outcomes...
After my 12th boards ( where a fared badly), a decision to drop an yr by for preparations was my very own...I had this rare feeling of craking d jee if i worked harder to my true potentials...i kept my nerves n prepared negating my inner call which kept on pestering d fact dat i lacked d very interest in books...However i clung on to wat i thought n soon my illusion was boomeranged wen i failed to even clear my screenings....To make things worse i didn't better anything in AIEEE exams...however i had no options but to get wat i was given according to my rank at AIEEE....Again i defied to wat my inner call said n took Biotech despite of i having suffered severe setbacks in biology in my higher school....Getting a seat in an engg coll for me then was more of an prestige thing n d future was d last i cared then...I was more scared of stayin a yr again at my home n listening to varied critics from my neighbours....Really,dese critics drive me wild n shoot my temper to the highest degree...Still, i don't regret my decision of joining SASTRA in pursuit of satisfaction....
The stay at SASTRA has been a phenomenonal one....d inner self of mine din leav me n tried conveying its message to me time n again......these 4 yrs have taught me wat ppl don learn in their lifetime....experienced a hell lot of things....from friendship to enemity...n from crushes to love(just kiddin....!!! )..i had it all....i started my academic career in my college on a bright note topping my class...However,the very interest of studies or d lust lost its charm from an increment in my entropy....My randomness has been a very surprising entity....or a rather shocking one.....in a journey from 1st semester to d 7th one, i have come a long way securing high sgpa of 9.33 to a shockingly low of 8.00...that expains d randomness i have been through...:)

I still remember d 1st time i smoked.....well !!! ppl hav their own explanations for my starting dis unwanted act.....but its doesn't matter me a lot....d only reason i did was a sheer curiousity to experience a new stuff....god...!! don know y ppl make such a fuss at it when it a common human phenomenon....Though my inner self proved dormant that time....It (smoking) is not an act of chivalry but neither is something to be ashamed off.....smoking may give a bad name but not a bad character....m not supporting dis menace but neither banning it completely....m saying this wen i hav almost given up this n feel pity for people who get in a habit of smoking....

However i have few precious days left in d coll....i have loved,argued n fought with a no. of ppl in coll....But before i step out of dis revered institute 'll surely make it sure dat all d scores r squared off n i finish this marathon on a happy note....n as usual my inner self is with me n will probably guide me through to wat i aim for....dat's my Inner Call.....!!!!