Desperation,frustration brewed with added tension and the severe heat of the Hyderabad summer finally made me foray into blog once again...its not that I am doing favour to any one but a sudden eruption of words made me think..."chalo likhte hai.."..was passing time anyways....
The last blog i wrote was on feb d 14th dis yr..well..!! it was more of stupidity embedded with the last nite's beer can which made me overcome the daunting task but considering the length it seemed even in my sub-conscious state i was just trying to pull along..
Lets rewind a bit..I passed my college almost a yr back...to b precise on 22nd may was back to my home..bak amid preparations of my elder sister's marriage..a marriage means lots of well conceived planning and is more of a frenzied extravaganza which leaves me puzzled several occasions..However it was decent was 2 months passed by..no i didnot make any efforts for the marriage..it was best executed by my elder cousin bros,uncles nd etc etc...the event was a big ga-ga and taught me a hell lot of things...being patient is the 1st one...nd others i thing would be boring discussing over here..
The marriage ended wid my visit to college..i had to ferry along with me a guy to get him admitted to NIT Trichy..Convocation was another big event..Met almost evry one i wanted to meet...and the rest I just ignored off...This was followed by wat i term as my life's recession,though i mean in a much more positive sense..My younger sister who by stroke of her luck(as she claims) or by her brilliance(as i claim) studied in the same batch as I did got her call from TCS by end july..Off she was for her training program.The next 4 months that followed engaged me all sorts of frenzied activities..started seeing every soap on TV..right from Big Boss to Splitsvila and god knows wat all..added several kilos and few inches to my waist line..The person who clocked 32inches waist clocked record-breaking 36 inches of waist by the time my call from TCS came in mid octobr..Thereafter time or rather the days have been mostly fats-forwarded..Days passed like minutes..Within a span of 3 2 months I was done with 2 trainings and spent almost 5-7 days wid fever and 2-3 weeks on medicine...The end of the journey had led me to TCS Hyderabad where by am working on OCC project for Belgacom client which is based in Belgium.Am earning a decent package (if u talk relative to infy or wipro) but a very modest package if u talk relative to oracle ,cisco etc.
Last to last week made a trip to mumbai.The primary aim was to meet my sister.Stayed at friends place...Though met them after a long time but still time froze wen i went across them after such a long time..It was a wonderful trip and i really felt for dese guys who made 1-2 hrs trip from their home to various part of Mumbai for their work and then bak home...the trip was really wonderful it various senses..
That's it for the day...M not used to scribbling so many lines at a time for a long time..it'll take time before i get bak to my normal bloggig ways... :)

wat else do i want...!!

its been almost a yr since i wrote my last blog...guess d inner thirst of words which fancied my emotions had a run for their money...but somehow m bak....thanks to this braodband net coonection and my friend's lappie..
diring d past 1 week d level of uncontent and discomfort has been rising at an unprecedented pace giving me jitters now n den...perhaps my hectic life gives me razor blade edge chance to really think about my aspiratins and ambitions...dis weekend i was forced to think so...guess d real me has been missing as always...no inner calls dis time..probably dis is d hangover of d last nite's full stomach beer can wich's makin me think in such a fashion..contrary to wat i believe,m still not sure wat i want in life nd wat i am really doing...
As always m still d same guy,always in dilemma and very thoughtful, a simple event nd m down to ashes...perhaps its d time to resurrect myself n get me my lost glory....

things have been irrelevent,insignificant for me for a long time...doesn't matter a lot wats goin around me...d reason i hav really stopped carin n broodin things over...few days bak one of my frens uttered on bein drunk dat u shud think about only dose who think about u...though ppl took dat in a lighter vein dat time but somethin struck my chord...dere were echoes in my self-conscious who did tell me d truthfulness of wat was said...!! 4 yrs in college n apart from some treasured frens n a degree i hav nothin to b proud of....guess everyone feels d same...but for me its been a mixed treasure of frens who loved n frens who hurt me..but come on...m optimistic...ppl 'll realize deir mistakes... ;)

technically dis shud b d last blog of my college given d fact dat i hav just 3 more excruciating days at d coll...added to it gettin a comp to blog in has become quite difficult...ppl r busy burnin deir cd's n dvd's...so probably dis last blog would not be dat interestin n would more be d emotional types...its not dat m fakin it up but d oder part of mine which is less humurous n more of serious is quite emotional....just now i left a fren of mine who's on his way to him...a yr as a roomie i had no words to tell him at end...really parting's tough n things get worse wen u kno dat meetin again might not be possible...things hav come to standstill....dropped my plan of goin to trichy just bcuz i din wanna another day of toil in hot weather...feelings r mix...m rather happy at goin home n join my dad for my didi's marriage preparations but dunno things go other way round wen someone expresses dat he/she'll miss me....god...!! i really hate it...dunno why dis feelin hav been made...y shud v feel afterall...come on...its just been 4 yrs 2gether....still...m perplexed or rather confused....!!

still 3 days to go...tryin to meet all n just say a final good bye to dem....and waitin for a few ppl to say me a good bye....m not expectant but just tryin giv a proper shape to a so called good relation i had wid dem...dunno wid how many ppl 'll be in contact...m not d one who goes on droppin by to say 'hi'...rather i prefer d safe route of not encounterin ppl of my past...but dere's someone in me who wants to change....change for d good...

hope things work out....m bein optimistic....in course of fillin many frens slam book i wrote in a few dat...d world is short n we have to go a long way....hope i keep bumpin into dese treasure hunts of mine n relish d old days we spent together....hope it works as i think of...finally 'll my coll

Time n again i hav refrained myself from bein d better half of mine....d part which is less repulsive..calm..composed n d one which earns me a good name...but its like moving towards oblivion...every step of mine inches me towards it...d more i try to be someone who's d best d other half of mine sprangs to life with utmost force...
bein someone who has aways tried to be sincere atleast wen relations r concerned a few things pain.....wen ur closed ones move their back against u..d worse thing about me is m simply unable to backtalk about my frens...i hav a doubt n bang in...!!!..offlate ppl hav termed n infact also trashed me sayin m too demanding....m not fully sure but is d fact dat expectin ur sister to talk to u once a week is demanding....askin ur fren to meet someday is demandin..or is it expectin a hi or a simple smile on a fren's face ?? m simply clueless.....ppl say m too sensitive n take things on a very serious note.....damn it..!! i have always felt i hav been right no matter wat d world says....yeah.. i accept d fact dat m short tempered, harsh wid my words n often too critical n sarcastic wid my tongue but dat r my inborn traits n ppl who once claimed to be my closest buddies did knew about dis innate nature of mine....i wonder d most wen things which seemed a unique charcater of mine to ppl is somehow destablisin dem now....ppl feel bad wen i say anythin....come on..!! u talk to me after a month of exile..how can u expect to be let go widout a few critical words..
added to dis bundle of surprises...my class organising a farewelll....more of a get together( read it as an extravaganza just to promote interaction among ppl..) yup..i meant interaction only....3 yrs as a class n words like manage,interaction still comes wen a class get together has to be organized....last nite i got a msg sayin or rather informin me n a classmate of mine of dis farewell..!! taken aback it took me nothin less dan 300 odd seconds to think wat to reply...somethin which would tempt ppl to understand my lack of interest for dis....my excuse was simple n i thought fair enuf..somethin wich i had used in my past to evade many trips...financial crunch...but i had no idea dat dis reply wud trigger a chain of disputes...i guess at d 1st case i hurt d person who took pains to type in d msg n get it delivered to me(seriously man..i appluad any effort of anyone who msgs me....!!!) den another fren(who happens to be a girl) who i do respect d most called my fren to assess d current situation..my fren who is someone 'i don't wanna any controversies' types thot it better to pass d baton to me...raisin my voice phone is somethin i really hate..1st of all u let everyone around u know about ur pissed off situation....added to it chances of havin any effect on d oder side is less likely....n d last thing which i had in my mind was to blame dis fren who was at no fault of hers....my point was very simple...y should v follow others n do wat dey r doin...i really admired d way a get together was organized at d last day of coll....all enjoyed n had fun...i don't see reason y ppl should travel to 8 kms far in dis extemely hot weather n hav a lunch in some starred restuarants....added to it i din talk to half d ppl of d grp supposed to join me as a class....80% of my classmates were unknown to me...sayin 'hi' to dem wen i went across dem was surely out of contentions....but wat was more terrifyin was d remainin 15% whom i knew even was out of reach n sometimes i felt it was a rather 100% who was unaccessable to me...exceptions r dere though....wen u talk like dis ppl tend to find ur fault at it...but i felt glad wen my fren voiced a similar opinion...guess he's not dat vocal n tries hard to lash it out...but noways i'll accept somethin lik dis..
don know but wat i feel is still dere r ppl who feel m right...may b not many..i hav done dis many a times...analyse myself n fight my pseudeintellect to finally conclude m on d right way..coupled wid dese thots i feel i get to be d villian once again...despite of attempts( i won't say it was brave ones) i played a spoil sport puttin many dreams n aspirations in a turmoil...but i know m right wid my words n do standby it....!!!!!!

technically this blog of mine should hav been d continuation if d earlier one but i felt d sequel could wait a bit longer n one should deal wid d present rather dan diggin d past..most of d times d past stinks(its lik u remember d stinkin part mostly....) n its d present which persudes u to move 4ward in ur life...!!
Tamil Nadu has been ever hotter....d wild hot weather gives one shivers literally...guess its only dis state in dis contienent wich is biasedly affected by d green house effects..(dunno much about wat it is but ya..it raises d environmental temp..)..moreover d geographical location too mak it a very humid places makin u sweat at every occasion(even if u r tryin to sleep..)..trust me even tryin to sleep takes a lot of energy in dis extremety...anyways wen summer is concerned m quite allergic n i make it a ponit to attain respite from it somehow....!! dis led me to make a trip to a hill station recently...its popularly known as 'queen of hill stations'...i mean its Kodaikanal...
Finallly after a week of yes n nos...persuasion n agreements v decided to make a move....quite daring one considerin d fact dat v were a bunch of just four n takin in to account d per head costs one would incur dis sounded way costlier...but d thot of welcome respite was always dere so v stood to our commitments n left for kodai on 27th april...4 guys n just 3 bags...i was made to carry d heaviest one....d backpack...despite of my protests ppl felt i was physically stronger dan oders....i really doubt dat..!! things started on bright note for us wen v got a lift from a luxury car on our way from my coll to trichy bus stand...v reached dindigual from where u were told to get our next bus from by 1 am in night...finally again v got another lift till kodaikanal..though d person charged us wid Rs. 50 per head but it sounded cheaper if u think about d comfort v had in d vehicle....however our myths were comin to an end..d very exit from d cozy vehicle at 0400 hrs in d mornin at 2500 meters above sea level brought a chill through our spines...our first priority..take a shelter as soon as possible n crash off on d bed....generally m quite sceptical wen its concerned wid takin a hotel room....lookin for all necessities at a considerable price...though negotiations do take place later on...:)...but was in not a positions to standby my stringent principles n took d room wid out any negotiations....d next 4 hrs went lik a gust of wind...was d 1st one to get up..i splashed my face with water widout realising its freezin nature...wat happened next was somethin disastrous...;)....was shiverin wid cold n promised myself not to step into water for d next 24 hrs....but guess promises r made to b broken....seein my frens takin bath in dis ice-cold water i too thot of givin it a try after a mamothic thinkin over it....i tried hard not to scream out but could'nt help it wen d gap between d water n my skin was completed in nanoseconds....soon we dressed up n stepped out...1st plan to take d breakfast...v realised how cheap d place was wen d breakfast incurred 45 bucks each....damn..!!! entire budget looked out of realms....
had heard a lot from ppl about cycle rides in kodai...we went to look for d same....our joy seemed no bounds wen v found one....i was d one most exited n made a round around the infamous kodaikanal lake..before one laughs at my kiddish nature of going on a cycle ride lemme get to facts..the diameter of the lake is alomost 2kms and its compromised of ups and downs...a mere circle of the lake would take almost 40-45 mins and leads to a staggering loss to almost 400-450 kcalories....Now m feeling good... :)
Well i guess i should wind up dis story here itself....actually dis story was saved in drafts since more than a year and it today i.e. 30th may,09 that i did hav a walk through it....the story seemed rather interesting with the flavour of college life added to it and it made quite nostalgic....hope it revives memories of all the other 3 guys too who accompanied for dis trip...damn it....i forgot to mention an interesting happening in the trip or rather at the end of the trip..while our way bak to college we had a dauntning task of takin a bus early in the morning from kodaikanal....we hurried in to bus stand to take the bus...i and another infamous friend of mine tried to take a shot at peeing at a public place (the bus stand) as we were disgusted by the thought of holding onto this nature's call for the next 3 hrs of bus journey and it might lead to severe discomfort to the co passengers....just wen we tried to relieve ourselves on a display board saying DO NOT PEE(obvoiusly in Tamil which we did not know and it was certainly not intentional) , a police man with his lathi came cgarging at us shouting in hindi.."tum log ke pass dimaag nahi hai kya " listening to known words in an alien territory made us turn our heads...and den v realised we were messed up....the mere sight of police man charging at us shut down my entire mechanism of peeing process and the pant zipped in the next few nano seconds.....finding no other way out my friend tried to reason it by admitting the genuine reason....like a naive ye told the lathiwala 'agar yaha nahi karte to pant me ho jaata'(had we not pissed of here we would hav pissed off in pant itself)..i couldn't stop but laugh for the entire next 3 hrs of bus journey at dis genuinity of the guy....eventually the series of mistakes continued when we took a bus to salem and reached our college in almost 10 hrs wen the normal buses take 7-8 hrs...
But it was lifetime journey and ya had hell lot of fun....took bags or technically speaking bytes full of snaps....still have them in my orkut album...i really miss those days...:)

an account of my college life : part 1

I remember it quite well...still hav d vivid memories of my dad utterin a phrase rite before i was to be admitted to an engg. coll....he said "college me hi to knowledge milta hai (in coll u get d knowledge...)....dad bein elder to me , guess dis phrase came in from his coll life experience....perplexed n partially palled by enterin a whole new arena i din giv it a thot..however, 4 yrs after i feel goosebumps wen i recollect my experience at coll...a mixed bunch of happy moments to times wen felt totally disgusted n low....times of celebration to times wen found noone closeby....dis blog of mine goes to my 4 yrs at coll....guess dealin wid 4 yrs in a go in a single blog would make it long n probaly unreadable too....so 'll be dealin wid 2 yrs at a time....its d 1st 2 yrs n d last 2 yrs dat did had a prominent difference....somethin which made me completely different from wat i was at d start of d coll..so here's my happiest days....!!!
M very sorry but wen dates r concerned m totally forgetful....i made my way to tanjore in tamil nadu after spedin 2 days(man...it was my 1st time n i was really left high n dry at d end of s journey....) in train....somehow reached trichy around noon...at temperatures soarin as high as 38-39 degrees n heavy luggages our crusade was partially marred....v(me n my dad) decided to hav our lunch at some small near d station as v were dead tired....n hello...!!! v were greeted by alien parathas...( neither similar in shape n nor in taste...yuk..!!! it tasted awful..)..reached coll n completed d formalities...i was alloted my hostel room wid two hyderabadi guys...met a guys parent n d 1st thing he adviced me wen he heard of my native place was to live wid peace n harmony..guess dere's somethin to do wid originating from Bihar....u earn urself a tagline of bein rude,arrogant,destructive u a trouble maker...however dat advice did'nt deter me n i did return back to find my room locked...however sorted out things out n did came to know about my roomies....still remember dat it took 15 mins to break d ice....v had some common treaties...d best thing...d whole of my wing(west) was occupied wid Biharis....so dat 'hum gaurav hai" accent was quite common....roomies were ultra cool...had a gr8 time wid dem in d 1st yr....perhaps d wing was awesome n included all branch toppers...n now somethin which even i had been tryin to forget wid time....i did emerge as d top scorer in my section in 1st sem..plz..it was not a tremendous effort...guess my frens din put enough of effort...lol....
anyways d sgpa which i earned myself in 1st sem got in kind of trouble....lecturers always had high expectation n i kept on ruining dem off...made some gr8 frens in dat yr....owais , vivek....our trilogy was quite famous n v did go to college n come back togethr...another female , megha who went on to become my sis was d topper at d end of the year.....d whole of 1st yr was awesome except a few occasions....got linked up wid a thinnest girl i had ever seen...:) just kiddin...but really it had to do nothin n still rumours kept pourin in...but dats part of college life...u pull oders leg n should be ready for d same...more dan my notorious nature i was known as studious guy wid high notch sgpa's...it was dis marks which earned me a place in d merit list d followin yr....henceforth i never commited dis mistake(seriously it was...!!!) again n d studious guy known was all set to be buried in history book reborn as someone more flambouyant, friendly n i guess featurefull too....:)

Don know where to start from or wat to blog in....writin is one of my freakish instintictive passions but the very thought of sitting in front of comp screen n scribbling some lines gives me jitters....offlate my pseudoself has been d dominant one....d lazy part of mine has emerged yet again n i find extreme ease at sleepin n bein glued to IPL matches rather dan takin pains of writin a blog....guess it was one of my frens who asked about my blogs not bein updated dat i realized dat ppl do giv a flip to my 'not so sensible' blogs....its a ubiquitous law of nature dat anythin(either good or bad) may b liked by varied section of ppl invariably....wonder how offbeat movies too earn profits...d reason is dere's a section pf ppl who see it too...irrespectiv of d fact dat dey r who's who of d filmmaker....watever dis is not wat i gonna write about(talkin about profits n losses of busted movies).....
its been 4 days since my final yr proj review got over...sorry no excitements bcuz it was a complete flop show...not on my part but d review was worse dan d internal reviews v had....damn it...!!! for all d hard work v laid for 4 months d response v get its decent enough....everythin goes unnoticed n v become d 'bakras' yet again.....:)...but its somethin v hav used to....anyways d past few days or rather week as been as melodramatic as possible....last to last monday our juniors in a bid to show how good dey were bid us adieu( gav farewell in real sense....)...d last yr farewell being a flipper me n my frens were quite sceptical of goin in for it....but v had all decided to dress up in kurtas...n ya v looked good...entire group clad in kurtas...it was a valient attempt by d junoirs given d fact dat d seniors or rather me n my batchmates made evry attempt to hoot at top of our voices....girls were whistled at evrytime dey made an appearance.....d 1 hr show was followed by flashes of digi cams....cams fashioned in every other hand...it looked more lik a media dominated occasion where evry pose or movement was digitally caved it....ya i 4got v were given a memento to mark d occasion....however d day was marked my me loosin 100 bucks.....:(..though i lost it i had no regrets as such given d fact dat i had a rather good day...n how can i 4get this....!!! d spl thing about dis nite was all my female batchmates turnin up in saree.....man...dey all looked awesome....never before deir feminine part had come out so well....!!..d girls whom v saw from distance looked all set to be independent beauties ready to make a mark in dis cut throat competative world....:)
phase 2 of d dramatic week....last wednesday was my,infact all my fren's last day at coll....d tradition of scribblin lines on each others shirts was well known to me...so i got in a very old shirt...i don even remember wen by dad got it for me....idea was very clear,to preserve d scribbled shirt...had to meet a busy fren who offlate was not able to spare time for her obligation of meetin me...it happened again n i met 1 hr later as scheduled n it lasted for around 10 mins at max....ppl went on scribblin anythin n everythin on d shirt...guess i had to pay price for things of my past as my shirt was earmarked by guys with a prominent name written all over...:)...d day ended wid an old section get togethr where ppl were literally screwed.....life's a gr8 fun, n joke until dat joke happens over u....in d later case it becomes rather embarrasing....dats wat happened in d get together.....ppl were made to stand on a podium n answer queries from d audience wid cameras clickin all over....d quest of ppl made few shiver while many secrets were unearthed...d most shockin incident....i bein asked for a photograph by a girl....man...i was taken aback... :)
anyways d day ended on a happy note as i met all my frens...it was a fruitful 4 yrs at coll where i was made to learn all lessons....i never ever thot in my wildest dreams dat i would say this....but guess m gonna miss my college n most prominently my frens which were my treasure hunt infact.....!!!!!!!!!!!