the defunct me..!!..really ??

I have been living with a notional belief that i write for my self and its more of a self-pleasure and passion within me which forces me towards the blogspot.However,seeing the continuity with which i have been writing,i contradicting myself seems to be a quite a possibility.The other reasons(read excuses) being lack of time,a moribund environment in which i have created a niche for myself, or it might be my sudden concern towards my ambiguous life and career which perpetuates me to indulge in other activities in order to pacify the outcome.
Its been almost 5 months since i wrote my last blog.I did not realize it until of friend of mine did confront me with this fact.My hard disk have been cluttered with numerous documents where i did start writing but ended in noman's land and left it thereafter.Worse,i never tried to complete them too.
So, what i have upto.When asked by anyone,i prefer going with the prototype answer,"nothin,u shud tell me..!!" rather than really thinking what i have been really upto.Apart from getting a sumptuous meal and an adequate sleep, i have been doing nothing.Cribbing along with my friends at any change happening around,talkin about it for a couple of days and then cribbing about any other change.
In the last 4-5 months, my supervisor post have been a matter of a very high stake.Never knew what really was at stake.People resorted to cheap tricks and politics in order to acquire the post,as if having the post meant conquering a part of world..I have been a mute spectator at the other end, never deciphering the politics which have been growing along with stay in the company.Considering the fact that, there's a enormous competition for the top slot some apt guy would assume the honors,i felt outraged when i discovered that it was the 3rd loser in a row to become by lead.Damn, i hate my fate which always gets me to encounter people like him.

So apart from a monotonous 9-5 job,the only place i find solace are cinema halls.Off late i have seeing every movie which makes it way to theater.My desperateness can be very well understood when i voluntarily opted the movie 'Kurbaan'.Damn, it meant i 'kurbaan' by next 3 hours and some bucks to noone.The movie was a cheap(i would prefer a word vulgar) attempt to cash in the sentiments which some hindu fanatics hold.India is a hub of staunch religious,regional pigs who have been creating a mess around.Perhaps, the movie was meant for them.The typical "a hindu lady becomes the matter of atrocity from muslims ,who ll want to blow off the entire world".Basically this is the storyline which had number of loose threads and flaws.The movie had genuine similarity with "NewYork" movie though the later one was more decent and showed a psychology of human being rather than a religion.Disgusted with the movie, i ended up promising myself not to watch karan johar's films anymore.Contrary to what Rediff movies said"Kurbaan is bloody smart",i would prefer saying "Damn,its bloody smirk" creating more hatred, problems in this already proble prone and plagued country.
There are 2 things which am eying to do in the coming days,i)loose weight(i can feel now the kgs and calories which i have taken in) and ii)Start with or rather continue my reading and writing spree.More than anything else,it keeps me occupied,engaged and evades any negative thoughts to creep in.Thats all for today..Am back blog-spot..!!