I firmly belive that there are several events that keep trickling around u to balance off things...its perhaps the ubiquitous law of nature that if good thing happens to some person,it should be properly balanced with a bad happening or a tragedy that nullifies the effect...But y m i crapping today about laws of nature all of a sudden....perhaps the incidents that revolved around me since the inception of 2day's day may me submissive to indeed believe this 'all accepted' laws...
Today i.e 29th May '09 suddenly sprouted various feeling within me...among them where my job sucks,my colleagues are helpful nullified by the fact that my senior is an asshole,my friends &family rock and are supportive nullified by the fact that most of them live far far away from me...so the only solace,my sony ericssion K510i....:)
The day started on a worse note when i checked my salary for the month...Damn it..it was almost 5k less than expected...shocked ,bewildered ,i made a series of calls to really know who and whats the culprit...the so called 'transparency' of my company surrendered to itself when we were unable to find the real reason for salary cuts...people only speculated that it might be either variable pay cuts and HIS(healtlh insurance) premium cut....finally i gave up and tried to glue myself to the immortal computer screen(m sure that after knocking my PC with fists for number of time,it must be cursing me as of now)..had some issue to close in before we go on for the every friday's scheduled status update..though it never materialised(courtesy d ass****)...things were goin on a light note unil the AH called me up to ask or rather order me to come on weekdays...like a meek guy I behaved like a mute spectator listening and seeing myself crushed yet another time.I don't understand why d hell my reaction time is more than what child takes to bawl and cry if not given food...after listening to some so called issue(i guess my coding standards were below par as told by the AH and i need to improve badly...damn..fuck the AH)...I took almost 100 seconds to reconcile myself and another 200 seconds to build up my anger....My hands went cold and i took the step which i should have taken long back...i made a call to my onsite lead and professionally speaking,escalated the issue...m very sure no action would be taken against the AH but am very sure not to bent this time and bear his brunt.....his most strictest action may lead me to be kicked out of my account...but he fails to understand or deny the fact that am a bachelor and free of all boundary of relations...i don't mind leaving my company and all but my sternest of action may even lead to srewing the AH's happiness and i really mean this time...
Hmm...however the day ends on a brighter note after i got a call from a college friend....this was d very 2nd time i broke the record for longest talks on cellphone and i guess after the end of conversation even my cellfone got pissed of me and started disconnecting calls...:)...hmmm...wat did i speak...it was more about the complexities of each others life and how ppl in live can be so insensitive and so utter disrespect towards somebosy else's feelings......its almost 2 in night and i hav an office tommoro...but 2day's incident was an eye opener,reminding me of my erst while resolution of going for management and how casual i have been towards it offlate....
More than anything else i guess my blog will remind me of my resolution and keep pestering me towards it...and ya i write for myself...my very own sake...am real selfish when atleast this is concerned...:)