my trail to the TCS.....!!!!

k....m writin dis blog almost a yr after i got selected in tcs(i should also mention i was among d other 314 odd ppl who all got selected...)..dis bracked thing was to avoid any eye brows raised appreciating my talent pool or applauding my intellect..only those who appear for dis recruitment drive(hell...y do dey cal it a recruitment process....315 in SASTRA n & 789 in VIT...) know its more or less a drive intended to tap d potentials of students in a well crafted ploy to outsource it....imagine working for 12 hrs a day brooding on to ur comp screens,feeding data in files n taking a salery of 20k a month.....sounds like a fairy tale....!!!..
well...have another 6 months to join d revered..(is it really...???)..so dere's no point in discussing d job profile n d opportunies i may land up with....u hear a lot from others but finally its u who feels on ur own n decides....:)...so here i m...d memories r still very clear...'ll be lying if i say i still remeber d dates....:)...i just checked it out...ya monday,19th of march,2007..d D day...it was announced around a month back about d 1st company which 'll take it go at d pre-final yr studs...TCS also conducted some orientation programmes awaring students of its pre-requisites n other quitessential things...K...before i get in my story lets listen to some prologue...barely a week before d tcs stuff my GATE'07 results got out...m sure dose eye brows raised for my appreciation of my talents will go down...i fared miserably( i guess m exaggaerating dis b'cuz i rarely studied for it...)..i din get a score...added to it a fren remarked me" der's nothing to be proud about it"...added to it v had our 2nd mid sems days before d D day...i bunked it fully just to meet my preparations...
So, d day came in...monday,19th of march...having mugged up d important gre words n practised d analytical reasoning a no. times i was quite confident of making it in my apti...but my main fear was interviews as usual....i really fail to express it out wid expressions( i still wondered how i did dat day....or i really did...)...d night of 18th was a bit too long wid d only thing revolving in my mind was d gre words....i barely slept for an hr ni could see it out d next morning in mirror.....i seemed a complete messed up...i shaved again( imagine shaving daily for 3 days....u could end up shaving ur skin only...:) )...got in my newly bought uniform for d spl day( really its a uniform , a code u gotto strictly adhere wid...).. i light blue ful sleeved t-shirt,black trousers...no tie plz now....n i was ready for d ppt(pre placement talks)..ya it was not d interview i was going for now.....i joined in my friends( aspiring employees of TCS )....v carried a note pad in just to make sure dat any spl info dey share does'nt go unnoticed....moreover wen u r drooling for a job u can't go to ur employee empty handed....i or v entered d audi an hour earlier just to make sure v get d seats n things start on a decent note ( i forgot to mention d eligible list of students were a whopping 1300+...)..n d seating capacity of d audi is just a mere 500...though other 2 audi's too were supposed to get d feed but d live performance attracts d most....:)..d gonna be ppt was supposed to start at 9 am sharp...but its INDIA guys n ppl find it essential to prove their importance n supiriority by gettin it late....d thing started at around 10 o'clock....Frens dis was d just d start....v were shown a couple of videos showing some musicians playin it out at everythin...'is dis wat u really do at TCS..???'..one of my frens asked me this inviting a welcome giggle on all faces...after dat traumatic ppt v made out ways to d notice boards to see out time slots for d apti...i was given a slot of 6:30 pm..90 mins exam means 'll be out wid d result n a hr form by 8 pm..( i was always optimistic about my results... ;) )...i spent d gap between d ppt n apti test by taking a survey of how many ppl did really make it in aptis....our initail survey was dissapointin knowin dat many prodigies also din make it in....however d guy who really got me in was my fren from cse living in my neighbour....he got in earlier n infused a positive spirit in me...
Howver d tense moments never leaves u...i got in d lab 4 along wid Gaurav Anand(a close fren of mine )....v sat in adjacent chairs just to make sure dat d 'help me my fren, m clueless' could b possible......v were given in a url ,a login id n password...i logged in a couple of mins after Gaurav did...god...!!! all dese words r new,he prompted...shocked at dis remark i gaped at my onscreen paper...k..its a synonym n d 1st word looked quite similar...d verbal reasoning was quite ok...but d quants were too too simple....u check out d old questions of tcs n u'll know d standards....now d most haunted analyticals were in front of me...but wats dis...its d same wat my neighbour told me few hrs back....i guess i was lucky... :)...10 anxious mins later d words Congrats...!!! flashed on both d adjacent screens.....time to re-joice....shakin hands wid ppl i moved out wid Gaurav n took a cig...really i needed it....d entire body was chilled off...more wid d anxiety created in d lab.....finally we made our ways in our hostel.....ya with d TCS hr form which we got..... :))

HAving cleared d aptis was not doing any good....another night was a passe widout sleep just thinking wat'll i speak out...but i had a strategy(it was a common strategy for all my frens...just say some crap but be confident like hell.....!!!)...my hr inteview was supposed to be at 11 am in morning....but as said earlier ppl again tried proving deir importance....my interview was delayed by goddamned 7 hrs....i dressed up most carefully as i could....looked ok...well anyone fitted wid a Rs 1200 worth parx shirt n an ultra expensive lee cooper shoes(they were never mine...) will look like a gentleman...another 30 mins were spent in a kind of waiting room from where v had to move out to butcher houses...oops m sorry...i meant interview rooms....i sat along with Gaurav(again) n Vikas outside d technical panelists....10 mins later i was called in....n d most awkward situation came in...dere wasn't a room...its was various cabins.....should i ask if could come in d room...??? it wasn't a room...shoold i shake my hands wid d panelists...dey looked way older dan me n included a female member too....i din do anything anyways.....i was bombarded wid a volley of questions....i appeared quite confident den..however it soon shattered off wen i failed to mumble out d newton's 1 law....i really forgot it dat time but recollected as soon as i came out...i did it again wen i failed to wap for a factorial....i really seemed to be out of my mind....comin out of d hr room or cabin ,i was brooding over my mistakes n promising not to repeat it again in the next hr interview( i had no idea dat dey did eliminate students in technicals....)i sat on d moulded chair lookin all smiling faces...my face said it all, how screwed up i was....

A few mins later as i expected i was asked to report upstairs for hr interview..i really wanted to do it fast...i was done wid all dese software stuff....all info i stored in my mind about Tcs startin hauntin me wid thoughts of i not clearin d tcs test....soon after my name was called in....8 hrs since i adorned d shoes my toes were irritating....i was all worn out....but thank god my panelists were too good...made me get at ease n few secs later i was bubbling again with my innate confidence.....i really did it well...answere them positively n i did well...!!!
dat night was even more painful wonderin if 'll be in or out....i think i did well in hr...but wat about technicals...i screwed up....frens kept motivating me about d results n kept pestering me for d next days celebrations...but deep down somewhere i kept feeling d chill.....!! next day i had my ususal classes...i did it...gave attendance fa a few...rumors started pouring in about d results as it could be out any moment....as once again d TCS ppl proved their point....we gathered in d hall right at 2 for d results...once again i sat wid Gaurav( dat deep down fear made me sit,just wanted to be 3rd time lucky...)...d proceedings started at around 4...however d final figures were way lower dan expected n we just nodded showin our disbelief n fearing a rejection finally....d long list of 315 students started getting it....ppl clapped,hugged each others n some jumped all around....finally d start of biotech names list gave me goose bumps...trust me it was d must horrifyin moment for me....somethin i could never forget off.....Gaurav Anand's name was followed by mine...since we shared same 1st name m still skeptical of date if i really made it in TCS...(just kidding guys....!!!!)...however it was traumatic 3 days for me which ended wid celebrations...it was partial though as we waited my other frens too to get placed....
a yr after wen i recollect dat moment i still feel d heat i got through with n appreciate my intellect too...!!!!well finally in a yr wen i failed at everythin literally i chipped in wid somethin...an achievement n a kick off to my career....!!!!!!!!

m i back to normality....???????

Having posted 4 blogs in a span of 4 days really got me going....My inner self intriguing me if it me...??? a guy who finds penning down his views a daunting task much similar to Sir Ed's climbing the everest....!!!..
But m back....i guess back to d den where i created a safe niche for myself...
M a final yr b.tech student n contemporary to the popular belief m doing my project(which every engg stud is supposed to do,though rarely ppl do wid their sincerity....). More or less it's a mere formality which ends up with a decent grade...Mostly students don't give a damn to these grades...So, going on the pathways n trends set up by ppl , i decided to d same...Indulge into some cheap n impotent project inviting just a 'copy & paste' kind of hardwork....D plan was quite simple n clear...let d proj go one way,which does'nt require any work n study software stuff on d other side...(in may sound ironical but m a stud of biotech....shocked...!!!).Biotechnology which was deemed as one of the most prosperous sector after IT has somehow failed to prove its mettle...Poor infrastructure...lack of govt funds n sometimes poor human resources has done most of the casualties....Though d subjects have been dumb but d classes hav always been interesting...d male to female ratio of 1:2.3 has always created varied interests n opportunities among me(m not only d one...i mean all d guys of biotech)...But yeah its a misfortune or in my words a bold fate line in my palm dat i never got in any relation with anyone...something which sounds n seems crap to my genre of ppl but a divine asset to dose involved in it....
hmmm...where did i go....now coming to the point..despite of a strong determination of studyin softwares rather dan doin my proj a rendezvous wid a scholar guy compelled me to change my mind....just hearin of some gr8 prospects of success in a proj got me going in my dreams..Added to it...d company of another intelligent guy led me to change my mind....there was i.d other side of me....all set to back up a challenging proj which according to my guide had only 1 % success rate.....
We started wid our venture on tuesday,9th jan 2007...though d work plan was not quite clear with i having no idea wat to do next....However d sheer determination of Verma(my proj partner) helped me keep my nerves...our guide was extremely helpful and agreed to watever we asked for....imagine working wid a 8 lakh fermentor n other costly stuff.....mere carryin dem gave me goose bumps....!!!!! anyways 5 days since d onset of the project , we seem to be landing nowhere...though my guide has been very encouraging tellin us to manipulate n show anythin....Anyways it does'nt matter a lot wat u do....wat matters d most is ur sincerity and attitude.....n time n again i hav proved m deficient of it....guess dis is wat i mean wen i say or rather ask.....m i back to normality...?????

the inner call.....!!!!!!

Many times (and i am sure it happens with others too) i have been haunted and intrigued by my inner conscious or soul(what ever the name you give it to it) questioning my very existence and the impact i have made in this world....when the whole world around you blames you for being your self and for being good to others you are left with no choice but question yourself....ask yourself to change your old habit of being good and be a bit selfish rather than trying to be good and creating troubles for your own self...this other side of your psyche creates ruffles in your mind and this is what most of us refer as the inner call....
I have been thinking what to exactly write down when a lot of things keep doing rounds in my mind...suddenly this inner call thing got me in...its a human tendency...listen to its inner call most of the times...be it doing a benovalent deed or be it indulging in dreadliest of deeds....Man has always done things to contain himself,his desires n his inner call....My rendezvous wid d inner call has been a regular occasion....time n again my inner self keeps intimating me n warning me in certain perspectives about d mistakes i might be commiting....Its a fact dat all d calls made by ur inner self is not always a right one n is generally biased to any burning desires n wishes in one self.....
However dis inner self of us is a divine one n on most of the occasions leads one to a right path....
i have seen different facets of life....d time wen i roughed myself in d course of preparation for iit jee to my foray wid gate, i have seen it all....n on every occasion my inner self has felt a premonition about the possible outcomes...
After my 12th boards ( where a fared badly), a decision to drop an yr by for preparations was my very own...I had this rare feeling of craking d jee if i worked harder to my true potentials...i kept my nerves n prepared negating my inner call which kept on pestering d fact dat i lacked d very interest in books...However i clung on to wat i thought n soon my illusion was boomeranged wen i failed to even clear my screenings....To make things worse i didn't better anything in AIEEE exams...however i had no options but to get wat i was given according to my rank at AIEEE....Again i defied to wat my inner call said n took Biotech despite of i having suffered severe setbacks in biology in my higher school....Getting a seat in an engg coll for me then was more of an prestige thing n d future was d last i cared then...I was more scared of stayin a yr again at my home n listening to varied critics from my neighbours....Really,dese critics drive me wild n shoot my temper to the highest degree...Still, i don't regret my decision of joining SASTRA in pursuit of satisfaction....
The stay at SASTRA has been a phenomenonal one....d inner self of mine din leav me n tried conveying its message to me time n again......these 4 yrs have taught me wat ppl don learn in their lifetime....experienced a hell lot of things....from friendship to enemity...n from crushes to love(just kiddin....!!! )..i had it all....i started my academic career in my college on a bright note topping my class...However,the very interest of studies or d lust lost its charm from an increment in my entropy....My randomness has been a very surprising entity....or a rather shocking one.....in a journey from 1st semester to d 7th one, i have come a long way securing high sgpa of 9.33 to a shockingly low of 8.00...that expains d randomness i have been through...:)

I still remember d 1st time i smoked.....well !!! ppl hav their own explanations for my starting dis unwanted act.....but its doesn't matter me a lot....d only reason i did was a sheer curiousity to experience a new stuff....god...!! don know y ppl make such a fuss at it when it a common human phenomenon....Though my inner self proved dormant that time....It (smoking) is not an act of chivalry but neither is something to be ashamed off.....smoking may give a bad name but not a bad character....m not supporting dis menace but neither banning it completely....m saying this wen i hav almost given up this n feel pity for people who get in a habit of smoking....

However i have few precious days left in d coll....i have loved,argued n fought with a no. of ppl in coll....But before i step out of dis revered institute 'll surely make it sure dat all d scores r squared off n i finish this marathon on a happy note....n as usual my inner self is with me n will probably guide me through to wat i aim for....dat's my Inner Call.....!!!!

new yr eve....!!!!!!!

Man i can't believe my guts.....m on a writin spree......just 4 days n dis is my 4th blog..perhaps its d only way i feel relived of wats goin through my riotic n insane mind....:-)
Its 31st today...d world celebrates as a new yr eve n try to enjoy even sec to its fullest....i know it would sound foolish of me and a bit weird but i really fail to find a reason to celebrate dis so called festivity wid great fervour....instead i feel ppl should really analyse wat happpened wrong d last year nd try to find a genuine answer to d questions dey created fa themslves.....i strongly believe the fact dat more dan anybody else a person is himself responsible fa his nasty deeds which stings him back like a boomerang..i really feel pity fa ppl who despite of bein in knee deep in troubles think d new yr as a reason to celebrate rather dan rectifyin their own problems....India is a land where advices come free of cost...it may be fa anythin....advices come like a free 'chutney' u get wid a Rs 4 samosa in any indian restuarant...right from ur failure in exams to serious things like choosin a career ppl r ready wid loads of advices...u don follo dem and u can be very well prepared to see their utter dislike fa u...god...!!!!
M not deviating from wat i started....i spoke about free advices just because someone today adviced me how imporatant celebratin d new yr was....like a 2 yr old kid i listened to it patiently knowin d fact dat an arguement would leav me nowhere....rather dan dat i promised myself to jot it down as my next bog...i really find dis celebration a paradox...come on in diwali and holi u hav a religious history n get hols to celebrate(my coll bein d one which doesn't find holi a reason enuf to call it a off...d results hav always been catastrophic...'ll write about it some other time...)
but a off day on 1st jan sounds stupid...another workin day wasted fa some nonsense get togethers,discos n other page3 craps....often these gettogethers become the reason for many conflicts in our society...d reason bein dat more dan anythin else ppl find gossipin about others more imp dan even givin a damn about d last yr or plannin anythin purposeful fa the comin yr...
i know this blog of mine will bring a hell lot of negative comments from ppl(if at all any1 reads it)...d reason dey would say dat m bein very pessimist n bit too logical....but guys don't u think dat the time has come to be a bit too logical n obvious rather dan leadin a life like others n inchin towards d oblivion...i know m bein a bit too sensitive on dis issue but if one thinks seriously and with a profound interest fa a better tomorro dese things hav to be taken into consideration...
finally savin urself from drownin in d pages of history is much better dan risin like phoenix...its d phoenix which knows how difficult is to rise again from d ashes.....it always troubles u all along....

me a blogger...!!!!!!!

really at times i gape at myself.gaurav(dats me fa sure) a blogger sounds weird but yet is very true.rarely words come up to me wen m writin it via d keyboard but d frequency with which it sails across my mind is a bit too pacy leavin me nowhere.fa me words r like immortal creatures creatin a ruffle in ur minds until u jot it down.damn, d whole of last nite i went through dis pain of words repeatin dem selves again and again forcin me to do d 1st thing in d mornin to crap it out.its obvious dat fa ppl like me who find it hard to speak it out to ppl to blog in,as it saves me of my inner burns which d fire within can do...
speakin blatantly i need a dose which could help me wid my writin.can't write always as most of d time m extremely casual.guess even d casualty shies off me(i kno dats a bad joke...!!!!!!!)..god!! m gettin hell lot of wishes from my fren fa new yr.at 1st instance i was not sure if i should wish dem back as its gonna b another yr passe wid nothin constructive happenin....m an yr older perhaps..:-(
hmmm.....no plans as such fa d new yr except d fact dat i may get a glassful of booze(how i hate it but its d best way u keep out of all d traumas u create fa urself)...wen ppl of my age group go to bars,discos n dance wid ppl of opp. sex i guess boozin is a little liberty i should get given d fact dat i liv e in extremely remote area n more dan dat an ultra orthodox coll....and dis frustration pours out in form of words....dis explains fa me bein a blogger..
so plans fa d new yr eve...hav a couple of pegs of whisky(certainly d one 1 get fa free..!!!) and smoke a hanful of kings cig. n live life king size.....!!!!!!!!!

aamir's invincible and formadable.....

3 days back i happened to get a pirated copy taare zameen par(courtesy d latest technology..certainly d internet...)...i really wanted to see d movie in a theatre given d promotion n hype dat was created around it.added to it all aamir being a perfectionist actor made me a bit biased towards him.but none of d theatres here showed any sheer interest in dis latest venture of aamir( i really pity tamil nadu ppl...dey missed sumthin..).since d release of the movie my stomach has been churnin to watch dis flick(it's not actually) and d reviews forced me to watch d pirated version....sorry tzp team..!!!
anyways 2 n a half journer through tzp forced me hard to really think.at the end of d movie i could'nt stop myself from gettin my eyes wet wen the child actor(ishaan) hugs aamir on winning an award.apart from anythin else d morale was tremendous from the movie.the songs were awesome and really created a buzz right through ur mind.aamir thogh bein d director and producer of the movie went to d backfoot and led d child take d center stage right through.hats off to d team of tzp.
finally i was really wondering whether shahrukh was d king of bollywood.doin masala flick lik om shanti om may be doin a wasy task.ropin in 26 stars (all famous ones) and makin d movie hit is easy but askin a 8 yr guy to take d center stage and makin a sense out of a movie is somethin commendable.it was a movie after a long time which can be viewed by any age group person.
it was really happening to watch dis moveie.a movie par excellence.......!!!!!!!111

life's a vicious circle.........

i mean wat i talk.......certainly life's a vicious circle lettin u go through numerous of higha and lows like a roller coster.......i have been someone who has experienced dis stuff n talkdis out of my pseudo intellect...
the lines from d movie serendipity' life not a series of any ordinary events but a series of events dat gives rise to an exquisite and a sublime plan.'certainly its very true.wat happens in ur life is meant to teach u a lesson and indeed der's a lots to learn from any acute or simple happening in a person's life.be it an injury(both physical or mental) or a victory in ur activities.dere's a lesson everywhere.